Friday, September 6, 2013

kinda sorta apathetic

which is frustrating, especially since i am kinda sorta apathetic and procrastinating about doing anything about it... nobody cares, why should i, right?... well, that is the reasoning in some part of the brain and that reasoning (nobody cares, why should i?) seems to be driving the bus when nobody is around (and that is most of the time)... i become everybody else's cheerleader and motivator and coach and therapist and helper and so on so much easier than i do it for myself... even with all the writing... sheesh, frustrating... maybe i'll start caring about myself more tomorrow...

narf :P