frustration

the feeling is frustration for the moment, frustration with a roommate who does not pay her share and has not for years, frustration that i adopted her as family as i've done with others in this life because i love to help people, care for people, and ultimately, buy family... frustration with this habit i have of allowing myself to be used just to believe someone lives me and wants to be part of my life... frustration because i am believing a promise that it will change and have put myself in a serious financial obligation dependent upon that change... frustrated because she has promised before and has not followed through and i may be putting myself too far out on a limb this time as i have in the past... frustrated because i always know better and do it anyway... so nothing new, just the same old frustration returning, for the moment...