happy sadness

memories of loss, remembering the dream and now, all these years later, the wish for closure that may never come... the sadness of remembering loss of the magic moments (with her lips so close to mine, not like any other)... the first unbelievable dream come true moments of falling in love with the one so wanted, heaven and earth could not stand in the way... the first infinite passion, the first eternal promise, the first love and unconditional trust... and now, this moment, the joy of knowing the experience, however long ago, however lost the dream, however broken the heart, however gone, knowing it was, remembering, feeling it once - there is the joy... to know the truth in the phrase it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...