didn't last long, did it?

I'm probably too lonely, alone, and out of touch with contact, being in touch on the momentary scale, to maintain this... or else there's just not enough time and it hasn't become habit... maybe next time :)

just now

I am really tired cuz I've been up all night cuz I found myself relating to someone online who writes words that talk to me (amuse me and move me) and missed her visit to Orlando (not that I particular want to expose anyone to my current living space and I wish I had the house I once had with guest rooms and cleanliness) and my hunger for a true friend grew to an all-nighter of hope, despair, and more hope... I'm going to bed now...

bored

It doesn't happen often, so I thought it might be important to record it.

must have forgot

of course, this is the experiment gone awry cuz nobody pays attention to the moments, at least not consistently, not even me... but I want to... and I used to... and I would try again if someone would share the journey... so at the moment I am accepting the peaceful euphoria of being alive and being me while simultaneously accepting the sadness of longing for love and sharing and feeling loneliness... how are you?

from the gym

arriving home after a 100 minute workout on a fasting day, pooped, but feeling good and not hungry, a good sign... entered the data into the FDitday program and now, to visit RealTime to see who visited, say hello, sum up the day, and whatever...

even briefer than brief

yes, another blog... why?... because this one will be even briefer than the brief RealTime blog that is supposed to be brief... so good morning, I feel tired and lonely and happy to have another day to start again and hope for more... how are you? :)